Ram White
Mirror of the world
Synposis
As an immigrant child growing up in the Ruby Sea, Ram often believed what the others in his village used to say about him: a dumb, brawny hard-head, ultimately destined to never to find a greatness of his own. And sure enough, Ram grew into the very image painted for him. After muscling his way through the Kugane criminal underworld as a strongarm-for-hire, Ram eventually planted roots in a gang of thieves—the Kurohana Ring—as their resident enforcer. Adopting the "Ohitsuji" title, Ram quickly gained a notoriety for his fierce loyalty; living up to his namesake, he would blindly charge wherever the finger was pointed.And that would’ve been that. But fate, as it often does, had other plans.Following the catastrophic failure of a run-of-the-mill boat heist, Ram was plunged into the depths of the Ruby Sea, barely surviving by a thread. However, the man that washed ashore was not the same. The incident had changed him not just in body, but also in mind.Ram became quickly overwhelmed by the rush of new, vivid sensations, almost as if the Ruby Sea itself had directly drilled an eldritch curse into his skull. Teacups revealed tangent lines along their rims. Perspective lines jutted out from buildings, converging onto a single point. Complex metaphors, once nothing more than jumbled scribbled on a page, began literally constructing themselves in his mind.And yet, Ram could not shake the beauty of this new worldview. For once in his life, he reveled in a clarity and appreciation for life.Now, Ram runs a tight balancing act between fulfilling his obligations as a Kurohana Ring enforcer and making time to understand his new condition, ultimately seeking to walk a path shaped from his own mind.And the first step? Learning how to read.
Ram White
Childhood: Blue and Red
Ram’s earliest memory came in two shades: blue and red.Growing up in the Ruby sea, blue became the central color palette of his upbringing. Ram adored the ocean, often accompanying his family on fishing expeditions just to gaze into the waters and lose himself to the waves. A childlike wonder sprouted from his observations of the water, as if an invisible painter were staccatoing various shades of blue against the refracting light of the sea.The red motif, on the other hand, came from a more dubious origin.An outcast throughout his youth, secondary to his status as a Gridanian immigrant, Ram swiftly learned that respect was earned through the reality of his fist rather than his imagination. Despite his unconventional name, Ram clung to it like a symbol of defiance, proof that his existence carved a space into his new home. Surely enough, he kept true to his namesake, quickly-tempered and constantly charging headfirst into his opposition regardless of the odds. He reveled in the feelings of control, security, and, most prominently, respect. Yet, his craving for validation eventually tore him off the righteous path, abandoning his home and directing him to the big city, Kugane.
Teens: Gold
A wild delinquent in the streets of Kugane, Ram struggled to scrape by. Every day on the street seemed like a battle for survival, yet he remained headstrong, clinging to life. On the brink of starvation, Ram was picked up off of the gutter by a local yakuza clan, The Kurohana Ring, changing his life forever.Under the guidance of his oyabun, Ram mastered the art of violence, combat, subterfuge, and extortion. His tenacity garnered special attention from the founding members, allowing him to rocket through the ranks as the organization’s prized protégé. He gravitated to this newfound family, instilled by the yakuza lifestyle's strong themes of discipline, connection, and loyalty. By his mid-20’s, the gang life had completely transformed him into the Ring’s stoic enforcer.
Young Adulthood: Black
In what should’ve been another routine score for the Kurohana ring became the night that Ram’s mind split in two. A boat heist, a merchant vessel, a quick raid of the gil coffers. Nothing more.But it seemed that routine had a knack for breeding carelessness.Following the catastrophic accidental murder of an innocent passenger, the merchant crew erupted in fierce resistance. Chaos overwhelmed the vessel, a lantern tipping, oil spreading, and within seconds, the ship became a tinder box. Through the smoke, Ram charged into the frontlines to buy his gang time to escape. But when he turned his head to follow the others, they were gone.Then the powder stores blew.Ram was hurled into the Ruby Sea, his skull smashing against the jagged face of the coral bed. His vision blurred, the burning remnants of the ship seared into his final memory before fading to black.In this darkness, vivid lines and shapes began to bloom from nowhere, etching themselves across the fish scales and seashells. He awoke, clawing his way back to shore, beaten and broken.Lying on the stand beneath the stars, the visions did not subside. While quickly overwhelmed, his tired body was physically incapable to resist. Hours passed, and, over time, Ram began to appreciate the geometries of the night sky. For the first time, he saw the world’s beauty, in all of its horrid, fragile infinity. And, for the first time, a craving unlike anything before: he wanted to understand it.
Present: White
Now, Ram continues to operate in Kugane, albeit coping with his newfound world view. In his own terms, Ram is aware that he is a “bad man” and often reflects upon the morality of his choices. He struggles to find balance between his obligation to the gang and his yearning for a life beyond it.He seeks to walk a path. A path shaped not by violence, but by his mind.And the first step? Learning how to read.
Ram White
Ram White
Pronouns: He/him/his
Alias(s): Tsuno, Ohitsuji
Gender: Male
Date Of Birth: 21st of the Sixth Umbral Moon (12/21)
Age: 28
Sexuality: Bisexual
Relationship: Single
Species: Hyur, Midlander
Occupation: Criminal enforcer
Physical
Height: 5 fulm 9 ilm
Weight: 136 ponze
Hair color: Jet Black
Eye color: Emerald
Build: Toned, medium
Skin: Soft, unblemished
Notable Features: Healed laceration over the right cheek.
Mental
Personality: Blunt, fierce loyalty, earnestly awkward, curious!
Zodiac: Sagittarius / Capricorn
Alignment: Lawful Neutral
MBTI: INFP
Attributes
STR ★★★★★
DEX ★★★☆☆
CON ★★★★☆
INT ★☆☆☆☆
WIS ★★★☆☆
MAG ☆☆☆☆☆
CHA ★★★☆☆
Likes
Favorite Food: Skewers, low and slow cooking
Favorite Season: Winter
Favorite Color: Palm sugar brown
Hobbies: Reading and writing (at least he tries), cooking
Values: Loyalty, identity, duty, honesty, simplicity, curiosity, cleanliness!
Dislikes
Disliked Food: Anything fermented
Phobias: Snails
Social Behaviors: Liars, arrogance, and hypocrites
Situations: Crowds (particularly ones that put him into attention)
Backpack
⸻ Romance Novel ⸻
A cheaply bound book with a faded cover, its pages are smudged and worn to the spine. Ram can barely make sense of its flowery words, but he carries it with him everywhere. In his spare time, he can be seen slowly sounding off each syllable, treating each line like a study guide.
⸻ Bookmark ⸻
A flat rectangular slab of wood with a white and woad blue ribbon tied to it. The slab is adorned with a beautiful hand-painted design of several red orchid blooms and their vine-like stems curling and decorating its front. The piece has neat and sharp corners and is cut exceptionally thin, perfectly sized to fit into his front breast pocket.
⸻ Charcoal Sticks ⸻
A small bundle of worn-down sticks wrapped in cloth. Used to sketch letters, draw strange diagrams, or scrawl practice words onto scraps of parchment.
⸻ The Kurohana ⸻
A black, mechanical lotus. Its intricate design makes the device appear delicate, as if a gust of wind could blow the entire apparatus apart. 5 loose gold-leafed petals stem from the flower’s center, just waiting to be plucked.
Playlist
⸻ 1. Nocture
"Not all doors are wounds, but all wounds are doors.
⸻ 2. White Beyond
"A dream. Behind the surface of a mirror."
⸻ 3. first glance
"They spoke softly in the back of the bar. The walls leaning in to listen–but he leaned closer still."
⸻ 4. Rush
"The body protested. Blood pumps. The body follows."
5. Don't ⸻
"The fight arrived whether I was ready or not."
6. Catch Me If You Can ⸻
"If you insist."
7. Shiki no Uta ⸻
"The lesson is finished, but my appetite is not."
8. On My Own ⸻
"The higher I rise, the more I see."
9. In The Pool ⸻
"This mattered to me."
Ram White
Hooks
⸻ The Kurohana Connection ⸻
“At your service.”In the market for some muscle? Wrongs need righting? Valuables needing to be ferried… or redistributed? The Kurohana Ring has a little something for everyone. Perhaps you reached out to them? Perhaps they reach you? As destinies collide, they are bound– contractually. At the other end of the negotiating table: Ram.⸻ Does This Come With Pictures? ⸻
“What does that mean?”The pillaged copy of The Dragoon That Vaulted Into My Heart was lovingly worn down to its spine. The book’s flashy appearance had caught his eye during a particularly hideous beatdown for his Ring; something about its gaudy cover struck a chord in Ram, prompting him to pluck the book away from an encroaching pool of blood. It has never left his side ever since. Perhaps you can find Ram, nestled into inconspicuous nooks around Kugane, intensely combing over each line of his marred book like a study guide. Perhaps a scholar or academic can lend a hand.⸻ A Novel Idea ⸻
“I should write that down.”Ram has set himself an audacious goal: to write a novel from the ground up. The problem? He doesn't have a lick of understanding of how to go about it. Undeterred, he scribbles, doodles, and experiments in the margins of his book, hoping to turn his strange, patterned perception of the world into something others might one day read.⸻ Pretty Words ⸻
“It’s something I want to say. But I don’t.”Ram is not a good writer—but he feels things. And that, more than anything, knots him into frustration: knowing what stirs inside him, yet struggling to shape it into concrete words. Instead, these emotions are translated into the esoteric scratchings that bloat the majority of Ram’s personal journal.Perhaps you catch him reciting these abstractions aloud in a particular Chocobo stall.…Chocobo stall?
⸻ Window to the World ⸻
“There are windows in a soul. But sunlight is not the only thing that passes through a window.”People-watching has become a hobby that’s grown on Ram. On lazy Lightsdays, he may quietly observe the Rakuza District from atop the Kugane Tower bridge. He ponders life in another’s skin. He often dreams up silly scenarios. In great detail. Of something more than him... and it comforts him. Perhaps you may find him, lost in thought, staring into the beyond.⸻ Caught You Staring ⸻
“It’s a pattern…It cannot be anything else.”
Break a thing, and you have fragments. Break those fragments, and you have dust. Break the dust, and then break what remains. There, between the nothing of everything, is where Ram sets his gaze– often for several beats longer than intended. He looks on quietly—intently—at the minute details of things. Whether it is the cresting waves against Kugane’s shore or tracking the transverse sway of a lantern, Ram is often lost in these invisible observations.Perhaps one may catch him in the act of making sense of the world.Or worse.Helping understand it.⸻ Paper Cut ⸻
NSFW. Contains blood/gore!
“Some things we can only really understand when they're gone.”A thin trickle of blood navigates the crenelated cobblestone path, gently pooling against the heel of a pedestrian’s boot. In a quiet, nondescript Kugane alley, you find him.Two broken ribs, several displaced intra-articular fractures, a head-banging concussion, and a big ol’ gaping abdominal laceration to boot. Not a great look for Ramlethal White. One hand weakly holds himself together; the other frantically pats himself down.A letter—found a beat too late. His last spurt of energy begins to wane as his thumb gingerly coaxes the seal open. Perhaps a wandering soul has arrived, offering unexpected assistance. An act of kindness would surely not go unappreciated.
Rules
1) 21+ players only!2) I do not have any alts. Therefore, I'm not always in RP! IC =/= OOC!3) No perma death, but if you wish to gore him? Permanent injuries? Near death experiences? Yes please, let's chat!4) Interested in a discord? Just ask! If the vibes are right, I'm more than happy to provide my handle!5) Have fun!
OOC
Yo yo! Thank you for giving my carrd a read!Beyond my lifelong passions for movies and gaming, I've always championed a good story. My most treasured memories were NOT living the WoL power fantasy or slaying the Big Bad Guy at the end of a DND campaign (although they were certainly very cool). It was the quiet moments that really did it for me: the roasting campfire, the intimate night sky, the weary ride home. I am open to all themes with the right setting, logic, and buildup.Now a little bit about me...
Age: 25
Pronouns: he/they
Timezone: PST
Schedule: Weekends, intermittent throughout the week
Favorite game(s): Dispatch, Pathfinder: Wrath of the Righteous, FFX, Persona 5: Royal, Disco Elysium, Red Dead Redemption 2, Cyberpunk 2077
Favorite movie(s): The French Dispatch (The Concrete Masterpiece), La La Land, Mickey 17, Parasite, Blade Runner
Favorite book(s): Flower for Algernon, The Doubter's Almanac, No Longer Human, The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society
Favorite show(s): The Bear, Gurren Lagann, Bridgerton, BoJack Horseman, Adventure Time
